Woke up...

I suddenly woke up this morning and felt that I have been dreaming for a year... yesterday night I chat with two of my girlfriends... and what xue fen said was totally correct and its exactly what I have been keep telling myself and yet I can't convince myself not to dwell in it... by the end of day you wonder have I been sleeping with a devil all these while?? I never denied that I was happy in the relationship... prehaps it was all a mistake from the start... I was not at all ready for another relationship, I was lonely.... maybe he was lonely too...

My heart has more or less calm down.... no doubt the heart still ache... but whats the point to feel heart pain for a person that is so cold blooded to you.. will he care whether you die? No.... all his answer tells me straight into my heart that he is heartless to begin with.... Enought said of him.. he shall never be reminded... Life still goes on... and I understand that from the lesson last time... picking up myself will be easy... as long as I keep telling myself he is not worth my second thought... I know one day when I look back again... I will understand how silly I have been... to get myself hurt for someone not worth it.